Sunday, July 26, 2015

Reunited in Korea

I'm a little late with this post because I've been so busy with everything going on here, but one of the highlights of this past month was having two of my very favorite people from home visit me here in Korea.

I spent this 4th of July making my way to Incehon, where I met Nate and Jess and finally got to see them in person for the first time as an engaged couple.

We spent the weekend in Seoul, where they surprised me with their ability to immediately get started with sightseeing. We were lucky that the weather was beautiful--warm, but not the oppressive Korean humidity that I was afraid of. All in all, we had perfect weather for sightseeing around Seoul.

Gyeongbokgung Palace. 

I love Gyeongbokgung! It made me sad to know this would be my last visit!

Bukchon Village

Although the weather wasn't quite as nice for the rest of the week (lots and lots of rain!), we were fortunate that my middle school had exams the week they were visiting. My co-teacher at that school asked the principal if I could stay with my friends since I wouldn't be teaching that day anyway, and he thankfully said yes. So, instead of sending Nate and Jess off on their own, I got to go with them to Andong. Our first stop was at Hahoe Village, then we made our way downtown for jjimdalk for lunch.
Korea is so green in the summer! The rice is getting taller and taller!

I loved these flowers! They were all over the place for a solid month.
 After lunch we stopped at this famous wood bridge. The fog on the lake was beautiful--a nice perk to the rainy day.

Nate and Jess spent the rest of the week with me in Jeomchon, before going back to Seoul after school on Friday. It was much hotter this time around, but we were still busy exploring the city. We made a stop in Insadong to wear hanboks and do some shopping, then made our way to the other side of the city to check out the Kakao store (yes, this was actually requested...this time it wasn't my doing!)

We found the perfect bar in Hongdae!
On their last night in Korea, we ended our crazy busy day with a trip to Seoul tower. I've been to Seoul so many times that sometimes it's easy to forget just how huge the city is. By the end of the day, we were completely exhausted and even though we had done so much in a short amount of time, it was hard to believe their visit to Korea was already coming to an end!

I'm so thankful that last year I was able to have Megan and Nate experience Korea, and I feel like I hit the jackpot getting to have two more friends come this year. Sometimes I feel like my life at home and my life in Korea are two different worlds, so I love that even for a brief amount of time my worlds were able to collide. So close to the end of my time in Korea, it was nice to see this country through a fresh set of eyes. You truly don't realize how much you adapt to things until someone new points out everything that is different and you think "oh yeah, I remember the first time I saw that."  

It was sad to say goodbye to Nate and Jess at the airport, but at leas this time I could say "see you soon!" Knowing I have these great friends at home has been such a huge comfort in thinking about my post-Korea life, and I'm excited for all of the adventures I will have with them in the year ahead!

Sunday, July 19, 2015

The beginning of the end

"You get a strange feeling when you're about to leave a you'll not only miss the people you love but you'll miss the person you are now at this time and place, because you'll never be this way again." -Azar Nafisi

My fast-approaching departure from Korea is something I've been attempting to write about for quite some time now, but I haven't quite been able to finish. In many ways, it just feels impossible to articulate the huge range of emotions I feel. There's such a bitter sting that I feel whenever I think about leaving Korea that it makes me want to ignore it and pretend it's not really coming.

However, as much as I want to pretend it isn't happening, it is, and Thursday was the first real wake-up call I had, as I had my last day at one of my elementary schools. While I had a huge variety of work situations this year, most of which made me crazy, my Thursday school was the light of my week. It took me over an hour on the bus to get there, but the commute was always worth it. This school was so far out in the countryside that I always felt like I was going back to an older Korea--a Korea before K-pop, plastic surgery, and the neon city lights took over. It was peaceful and calm, and I spent most of my commutes there listening to music and looking out the windows at the jagged mountains and green rice fields. There could be worse ways to start the day.
Some of the views from today's drive. Unfortunately the camera on my phone is crap. Everything looks way more impressive in person!

This country charm was part of why I loved this school, but the main reason was of course the students. Whenever I arrived at school the students always greeted me with enthusiastic hellos and high-fives. Whenever they were in class they were excited to learn and worked hard. When I left they always seemed to notice and yelled out "Goodbye teacher!" from where ever they were, even if it meant sticking their heads out their classroom windows. It's pretty hard not to love kids like that.

I adored these children, even if communicating with them was sometimes difficult. The hardest part of Thursday was not being able to really communicate to them how I felt. All I could do was tell them the day I was going to America and that a new teacher was going to come soon. There is so much more I wanted to say to them, but as is often the problem in Korea, I felt so limited by language.

In an attempt to remember as many of these students as possible, I took pictures with each class. Since I din't have a co-teacher, I had to use the timer on my camera, and the results clearly show that ten seconds is far too long for kids to stay still. After I finished taking pictures with sixth grade, they started giving me pieces of paper and asking me to sign it. I was at first confused and asked if they meant they wanted me to sign my name, and yep...that was what they wanted. So that's how I finished my last class at this school--by giving my autograph to a group of five sixth graders.

3rd grade. This boy grabbed my arms and wouldn't let them go. So cute.
The boys couldn't seem to get the hang of standing still.

4th grade. Only two students in this class!

5th grade. I love these boys! They made me laugh every single week. I will miss them terribly!

6th grade. 6th grade is typically a difficult grade o teach, but I adore these kids. They are so sweet and enthusiastic about learning. I will miss them terribly.

After my last class it was time for lunch, and on my way down one of the teachers stopped to talk to me about how it was my last day, which resulted in me trying to fight back tears throughout my whole meal.

It was a weird moment for me because I had such a vivid flashback to when I was still brand new to Korea. I remember feeling so overwhelmed when I first started to teach at the high school, and one day in particular I couldn't figure out what my co-teacher expected of me. I felt so overwhelmed and so far from home, that I remember trying my very hardest not to burst into tears in the lunch room. On Thursday I couldn't help but think of how much has changed between these two occasions. I somehow became so comfortable here--so much so, that now I can barely stand the thought of leaving.

After lunch the principal said he wanted me to go see him because he had a present for me. He gave me a handmade ceramic cup, which I unfortunately could barely even say thank you for because by this point in the day I had pretty much lost my voice. I did my best to bow and smile and hoped that that alone could convey my gratitude.

The weird thing about thinking about leaving Korea is thinking of Korea as something that will be in the past, to think of this as a closed chapter in my life. It's especially difficult for me to think about leaving Korea and not being able to easily come back. After I graduated college I took a number of random trip out to that area just because I felt a certain nostalgia for that time in my life. Leaving Korea is completely different because I know that once I leave, I'm unlikely to come back for quite some time. On top of that, I'm not sure when I will see some of these friends again--many of them I will likely never see again since we live in so many different parts of the world.

I've said it before, but when you're living abroad your friends become everything. It's a different kind of friendship because your friends are not only just the people you drink with on weekends, they're your total support system, your family during the holidays, and the people you share incredible and sometimes strange experiences with. It's overwhelming to think about leaving all of that behind.

Don't get me wrong, I'm excited to see my friends and family back home, but that doesn't necessarily make it any easier to leave. I appreciate that everyone back home wants to ask how I feel about coming home and is curious about what I'll be doing next, but in complete honesty, it's not something I'm eager to talk about. Being asked how I feel or what I'm planning on doing next feels a bit like salt in the wound when I don't honestly know the answer myself. I can't completely describe how I feel about these past two years coming to an end, and as for what comes next, there's absolutely no way of knowing until once I'm back and able to apply for new jobs. My whole experience in Korea has been more than I ever could have imagined, and I can't put into words how much I will miss not only this place, but this period of my life in general.

This next month is going to be an emotionally exhausting one, but the adventures aren't quite over yet.